लोस्ट love

I still think it's funny that the title here does its own language.
Fifty Two and living in the past. I have the song book on the piano. How ironic. All I can think about lately is love. Having cancer and surgery, now starting radiation. And I must be going through menopause, happy sad confused grounded, all at the same time. That's why there are no commas. One thing that cancer has really opened my eyes to, the sadness in the world. Oh, how beautiful this song is. See how I can go from negative to positive so easy. I'm so happy and content with my life, yet I miss something. My childhood, and the laughter, I'm getting melancholy, that spelling can't be correct. I fixed it.
Lost love or not ? Did I loose the love I think about or is it still there, just changed, am I sad it is gone from my life ? I need to find a place for it in my life and be happy about it. For some strange reason I feel I must confront it, but how can I without confrontation. I desire the love, and am uncontented.
I can be greatful and overwhelmed with love for all the blessings in my life,

लिफेस lemons

Life sometimes throws things at you unexpectly, and you just have to deal with it. I was diagnosed having breast cancer last week. It sometimes still doesn't seem real, days are passing fast, this Monday I'm scheduled for surgery. Two months ago I found a small lump in my left breast. Not having insurance, and not being able to afford to see a specailist, I live in Sarasota and tried to get medical assistance in Sarasota County. For some reason I was financially unqualified for help. Worried a bit wanting to see a Doctor and not knowing what I should do, a friend recommended I try Manatee County, and told me the Clinic to call. I made an appointment and was in to see a Doctor with in a few days. After that things have been falling into place.

वहत आईटी'स अल अबाउट now

The coffee house has been open now for a month. Things are starting to shape up with having a menu and knowing I have to be here from eight am to five pm. I'd like to take this opportunity to write or paint. My easle is ready with canvas , brushes and paint. My computor is working fine. Waiting for me to write the next best seller. Where to begin, and what to begin. The painting or the book.

How bout I just goof off here and pretend to write, I'll keep my canvas ready as if I were serious about it, and act so busy I have no time to write.
86 everything on the menu and play in the yard with the flowers.

Or I could close for emergency and go hang out with Bernie at the beach.

अनोठेर डे

For some reason the language is different again on the title. It's beautiful writing, but most people can't read it.
Another Day
Time is passing by so fast. I look back at things, love, my children when they were little and needing my guidance, and now that their mostly adults now they need me in a different way. Or maybe I need them more than they need me. Beverly is always reminding me how much she loves me and how wonderful it is to be a big part of her life. David hasn't reached the comfort zone yet of feeling totally secure with love and life. Lee is only fifteen, time hasn't yet set in with him feeling anything other than peer preasure and hormones, and sports. His school grades are normally very good. The past year he had a hard time with his first year of high school, and fitting in with the sports program. His grades could have been better. Stephanie seems pretty happy, married with children and working a stable job at a bank. I don't get to see her as much as I'd like but we have a closeness that's special. Marie is thirty two now and is living six hundred miles away, and we don't talk as much as we use to. There's a wall up that she won't take down. I won't go into it now, another day.
My granddauaghters are beautiful. Mariah and Cierra. This year they will both be twelve.
Therapy in writing. Thats what I'll call it.

लाइफ इस beautiful

Something is happening to my computor. The title here has shown up in a strange language.
Life is beautiful. I've begun a new relationship with a man I had a relationship with over 33 years ago. He's left his world and entered mine, completely. From out of no where he came back into my life.
I also had a wonderful dinner last night with some of the best people I've ever known. My daughter, my best friend, and a new friend. Graeme Edge. Drummer of the Moody Blues. A great guy, who has brought a lot into my life, and my daughters. He took us to one of his favorite restaurants on Longboat Key. Euphemia Haye. Lovely place, with great food, good wine and greater deserts. I'm geering up for a book, inspired by life and love.

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